I'm bored, Ok? I don't have much to say....guuhhh. *stares at the wall* I guess I'll just say the major points. Ummm so I registered this week for classes next semester...I'm taking 3 online and one in person cuz my parents wanted me to. The class in person is only 50 mins around noon...so I can keep my atrocious schedule XD And it's only on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Hmmm what else...Yeah it took me 2 hours to register cuz everyone was overloading the system and that sucked but...at least it's done. Umm I...*thinks* I had Wendy come over on Thursday and we did nothing but lie around and talk. She was gonna take me to get my lip pierced, but my parents threw such a bitching fit that I ended up not doing it, cuz they told me they wouldn't support me and they didn't care what happened, they weren't going to take care of me if a complication arose. Oh well I'll wait til later. Next week I'm planning on trying to find a job. =/ Cuz I have plans to travel a LOT this summer/coming up fall. And next week I hafta do invoicing for my lovely father (who also talked shit about me again this morning "she'll never find a decent guy blah blah blah she won't get a job blah blah blah you gotta conform to the norm" wtf XDD Well, uh, maybe he's right about one thing. Maybe I won't find a nice guy but I don't need one cuz I have a nice GIRL >D ). At any rate, I'm gonna try to ask him if I can help renovate the house we're renting out to people...cuz the last tenants destroyed it. =//

Hmm what else...uhhh I have a lot of hw this week but that's not gonna stop me from talking. I have plans for tomorrow, dammit! D8< I'm gonna spend my day talking to Cola and nothin (not even my darn tests) are gonna stop me. *is horrid* 8DDD The next few weeks are gonna be kinda busy...but that's fine with me. I just hope that I can get things in order, but I think I will. I've been SOOOOO happier though. And more optimistic. I'm not depressed at ALL anymore so...YAY

Damn, I'm tired. My health has gotten even worse and I can't sleep at night...but after talking to about it last night, I think I may have figured out what all is wrong so...meh. =/ I'll fix it. My mum wanted to drag me to a doctor but NOT YET I SAY D< First I'll see if it really is just stress/anxiety/a deficiency. Too bad that they can't know about HALF of my problem >> But I've been rly thirsty and tired, and coughing, and my stomach won't stop HURTING and I lost 5 more lbs. =____= Oh well. I looked it up and it appears as though it is anxiety (cuz I've been nothing but anxious lately so....) But if it's not, and meditation doesn't get this under control, I'll go to a doctor.

And now...I wish I could find a meme to RAEP. :C ...Nm I found some 8D Idr if I did these before...hahaha

LOL :

Dear Nicola,

I don't know how to say this, but I'm joining a monastery. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me in London, and I saw you carve your name in my aloe vera plant. I'm sure you're frost-bitten enough to understand that the garbage man turns me on. I'm sending back the pillows, but I'm keeping your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should know that I will inform The Swedish Tax Agency [of] our friendship.

Say goodbye to your creepy family from me,

Chazzi


HOW TO:
Dear -your partners name- (if you're single, type Mark)

I don't know how to say this, but __1__.
I think I realized it __2__ __3__, and I saw you __4__ __5__.
I'm sure you're __6__ enough to understand __7__.
Im sending back __8__, but I'm keeping __9__ as a memory.
You should know that I __10__ __11__.
__12__ /-your name-



1.THE COLOR OF YOUR SHIRT:

blue- our romance is over
red- our affair is at an end
white- I'm joining a monastery
black- I hate you
green- our horoscopes doesn't match
grey- You're a perv
yellow- I'm on the streets
pink- Your nostrils are an insult
brown- the mafia is after you
no shirt- You're a loser
other- I'm in love with your sister


2. WHAT MONTH WERE YOU BORN IN?

January- that night
february- last year
mars- when we were skinny dipping
april- when I was high on sesame seed ( lol? .__.)
may- when I was shaving your legs
june- when you put handcuffs on me
july- when I threw up
august- When I saw the tiny head
september- when your dwarf bit me
october- When I was taking a walk
november- When I tied my shoes
December- When your dog went crazy

3. FAV FOOD?
tacos- in your house
pizza- in your van
pasta - in London
Hamburger- Under the bus
salad- while you were eating enchiladas
chicken- with Chuck Norris
kebab- in your closet
fish- in woman-clothes
sandwich- at the mental hospital
hotdogs- in trans
other- with mr and mrs Bush

4. WHATS THE COLOR OF YOUR SOCKS?
yellow- hitting on
red- insulting
black- ignoring
blue- punching
purple- pour syrup on
white- carve your name in
grey- tear the clothes of
brown- put leeches on
pink- steal the toupee from
no socks- sit on
other- chasing out


5. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR?
black – my best friend
White- my father
grey- john travolta
Brown- my whoopee cushion
purple- my pie
red- the cookiemonster
blue- my aloevera plant
Yellow- my pen-pal from Ghana
Orange – my Carl Larsson-collection
pink – my cat
no underwear – my Cartman-statue
Other- The crazy monk

6. WHAT DO YOU WATCH ON TV?
Scrubs - man
O.C. - sensitive
One Tree Hill - open
Heroes - ashamed
Lost - turned on
House - cowardly
Simpsons - scarred
the news - Mongolian
American Idol – masochistic
Family Guy - senile
other - frost-biten

7.WHAT MOOD ARE YOU IN RIGHT NOW?
happy- how bad I've been feeling
sad- How boring you are
bored- that your Honda sucks
angry- that all your pimples are in the last stadium
Depressed- That I have changed sex
excited- that there's no solution to
nervous- the Middle east
Worried- that we're cousins
apathetic- that Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed- that I'm allergic to your hamster
Huggable- that the garbage-man turns me on
exceedingly happy- that I'm a clone
other- "Deal or no deal" sucks

8. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM-WALLPAPER?
white- your ring
yellow- your love letters
red- your Darth Vader-poster
black- your pet rock
blue- the pillows
green- the pictures of Portugal
Orange- your artifial teeth
brown- your cellphone
grey- our matching snoopy-bibs
pink- the old toe-nails
other- your military service-memory-box

9. THE FIRST LETTER IN YOUR NAME?
A/B - Your picture
C/D - the oil-stock shares
E/F - My virginity
G/H - your neighbor Carl
I/J - The blood-test results
K/L- your left ear
M/N - your suicide note
O/P - my sense
Q/R - your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V/W - your crime records
X/Y/Z- your highschool grades


10. LAST LETTER OF YOUR LASTNAME?
A/B – shall always remember
C/D – never will forget
E/F – Always will try to forget
G/H – will inform The Swedish Tax Agency
I/J – have always felt dirty because of
K/L – have never laughed in public about
M/N – am makin a movie about
O/P – throw rocks at
Q/R – informed the psychiatrist about
S/T – get sick when I think about
U/V/W – told the news paper about
X/Y/Z – never liked

11. FAV DRINK?
water- our friendship
beer - pensioner
Soda- a new life as a clone
milk- eskimos
wine- cocaine addiction
Cider- a passionated interest for mice
Juice- woody allen-imitations
lemonade- your embarrassing rashes
Whisky - destroying the 2nd world war
other- hating Shrek

12. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION?
Thailand - Best wishes
Sweden- love
England- With pain
Spain- Go f*ck yourself
China- gross wishes
Germany- With relief
Japan- go to hell
Greece - Your eternal enemy
Australia- say goodbye to your pet frog Leonard from me
Egypt- Go now
France- Good luck
Other- Say goodbye to your creepy family from me

Idr if I did this one either...but oh well

Nationality quiz

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[/] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[ ] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 1.5

Australian
[ ] you wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flip-flops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard Barbie.
[x] You know a Barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an Australian something (a dog 8DD and some things from Australia and a best friend from there too)
Total: 4

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother/father makes their own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ ] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10
[ ] you know what an Italian horn is
[X] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[ ] You talk with your hands.
Total: 2

Spanish
[/] you say member instead of Remember.
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[X] You like tacos.
[ ] You TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Pita is.
[X] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[] You know what platanos are.
Total: 5.5

Russian
[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[X] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[ ] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 2

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[/] You have a bad temper.
[x] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[] You have a family member from Ireland. (Idk tbh...proly)
[x] You have blonde hair. (had)
[x] You have/had freckles. (had)
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 5.5

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[ ] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 1

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[ ] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math.
[/] You have played the piano. (attempted to learn)
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 2.5

German
[ ] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German.
[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[X] You went to Pre-school.
[ ] You're over 5'2"
Total: 2

Canadian
[] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[/] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched Degrassi.
Total: 0.5

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[x] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[/] You don't read.
[/] You shop at Wal-Mart.
[X] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 4

So...I'm Spanish/Irish? LULZ Irish, ya got some but....heh

Ok I'm done =/

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You know me when I find a meme I liek..... ooooh~ I can't help it. They're too fun!!

YOUR BOY SIDE:

[x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[x] dogs are better than cats
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team
[x] shopping is torture
[x] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a XBOX,
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega (PSP count?? O.o)
[ ] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[ ] gory movies are cool
[x] you used to go to your dad for advice
[ ] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport
[x] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh
[x] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[x] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] sports are fun
[x] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[x] you sleep at night with your socks on
[ ] you have fished at least once

TOTAL= 18 -___- ROFL

YOUR GIRL SIDE

[ ] you like to shop
[xx] you wear eyeliner
[x] you wear the color pink
[x] you go to your mom for advice
[x] you consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[/] you like going to the mall (if with friends just for goofing off)
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures (never had one)
[x] you like wearing jewelery
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[/] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe (umm well Idk, tbh, I have a lot but I don't often wear em)
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars (I LOVE STAR WARS DDDD: )
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics
[/] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed (sometimes)
[ ] you smile a lot more than you should (HECK NO)
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes (pfftt Idk I never bothered to frickin count)
[x] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] you like wearing dresses
[ ] you like wearing body spray/deoderant
[ ] you like high heel shoes (I HATE THEM)
[ ] you used to play with dolls as a kid (no...I played with stuffed animals and dirt )
[ ] you like putting make up on others(if they are girls)
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything

TOTAL=7.5

AND ANOTHER 8DDDD Plz be honest with this one; I won't punch you I know I'm just Asking For It ^TM But I'm bored D:

WOULD YOU...

[_] Come to my house to do nothing at all but chill?
[_] Fight me?
[_] F*ck me? (=____= oh god...lol)
[_] Kiss me?
[_] Let me kiss you?
[_] Watch a movie with me?
[_] Go out to dinner with me?
[_] Let me drive you somewhere?
[_] Take a shower with me? (once again...oh god XDD )
[_] Drink with me?
[_] Take me home for the night?
[_] Let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] Hold my hand?
[_] Let me make you breakfast?
[_] Help me with homework?
[_] Tickle me?
[_] Let me tickle you?
[_] Instant message me?
[_] Greet me in public?
[_] Hang out with me?
[_] Bring me around your friends?
[_] Be down with me no matter what?
[_] Go to prom with me?


DO YOU...

[_] Think I'm cute?
[_] Think I'm serious?
[_] Think I'm a good person
[_] Think I'm conceited?
[_] Want to kiss me?
[_] Want to cuddle with me?
[_] Want to hook up with me?
[_] Want to "do" me?
[_] Think I would do you?
[_] Love me?


AM I ...

[_] Smart?
[_] Cute?
[_] Funny?
[_] Sexy?
[_] Cool?
[_] Romantic?
[_] A "freak"?
[_] Gangsta?
[_] Lovable?
[_] Adorable?
[_] Trustworthy
[_] Compassionate?
[_] Great to be with?
[_] Attractive?
[_] Mean?
[_] Well known?


HAVE Y0U EVER ...

[_] Thought about hooking up with me?
[_] Found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] Wished I were there?
[_] Had a crush on me?
[_] Wanted my number?
[_] Had a dream about me?
[_] Been distracted by me?
[_] Looked at my page more than ten times?


ARE YOU ...

[_] Happy you know me?
[_] Horny? (O__o LOL)
[_] Thinking about me?
[_] Wanting to call me to talk about these things?
[_] Going to repost this?


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What would you do if:

1. I was right next to you:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I was hospitalized:
6. I was drunk:
7. I hugged you:
8. I asked you to leave:
9. I asked you out:


What do you think about my?

10. Personality:
11. Eyes:
12. Hair:
13. Body:


Would you?

14. Be my friend?
15. Keep a secret if i told you one?
16. Kiss me?
17. Go on a date with me?
18. Keep in touch?
19. Date me?


Have you ever?

21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Kept something important from me?
24. Wanted to cuddle with me?


More:

26. Who are you?
27. Are we friends?
28. When and how did we meet?
29. Describe me in one word:
30. What was your first impression?
31. What reminds you of me?
32. If you could give me anything what would it be?
33. How well do you know me?
34. When's the last time you saw me?
35. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
36. Are you gonna post this so you can see what I say about you?


Umm but yeah guess that's it as far as memes go. -____-;; I just couldn't resist posting these hurrrrr. 83

Anyway...UPDATE TIEMZ

I talked to my mum the other day about everything. I told her she was verbally abusing me. And she said she was sorry. B/c then I took a LONG walk with her and I explained to her what all I had gone through since I was 12 and how she just was making it worse and worse. She actually had no idea O__o And thought I was a bad kid. She told me she thought that "all punks shot heroin." WTF =__= That's what SHE said. Anyway, I had to explain to her about the straight edge movement blah blah blah the history and bands and everything and she apologized. Cuz I honestly believe she thought I was on drugs. =________= WTF. I know she been talkin bout me behind my back....And I didn't think she liked me very much. Well I think that we've sorted things out, and I told her what sort of things dad had been telling me too..about how I pretty much so deserved everything that was happening and that it was my fault. She asked if she should talk to him about it, I told her NOOOO. That's the last thing I want, really. Well at any rate, I think it'll be Ok now. C: I'm working on change!

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My fuzzies :



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I was fuckin bored so two things. Firstly, I don't do Halloween but I found some good music for parties for those of you who do (If you're doing last minute preparations). 83 Like...here's some artists you might look at: Dawn of Ashes, God Module, Skinny Puppy, Psyclon Nine, :wumpscut:, Funker Vogt, Evil's Toy...yeah those are some good ones. 83 Just don't watch the music vids if you're susceptible to blood and the such. Lol. Also...I got so ungodly bored I did a meme...can't do hw cuz the rents took the computer that HAS my hw on it =____= *is waiting on them to come home*

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Running through the house like a tard and banging my head on the side of the doorway =__= BLOOD EVERYWHAR D8

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
A HIM poster...VILLE IS FUZZY And an islands calendar 8D

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Nyeh I'm not for certain, tbh...I've sleptwalked before and I think I've grinded my teeth during particularly bad dreams. Oh, and apparently I beat the people I sleep next to up =_____=

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
>8D My fav question!! Um, industrial, electro-industrial, industrial-dance, industrial metal, EBM, emo, hardcore punk, pop-punk, horror punk, post-hardcore, goth rock, goth metal, death/black metal, progressive metal, trance, electronica, hardcore (dance), dream pop, teen pop, some R&B, classical crossover...yeah.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
7:11 PM

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
8<

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?


8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My AFI and Skuppy CDs =w= And my dead CD player ;A; Well when it wasn't dead....And and and the jewelery my mum gave me on my graduation.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5 foot 2 inches at most

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Ummm only if I'm afraid I'll get stuck...like if it's in a cave or somethin'

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Well..sometimes ;^; Ok, I lied. Often. A lot. Everyday. I can't turn the lights off. I love the dark though! Idk what's wrong w/ me

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
=_____= Adam

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
A lot of things...my friends getting hurt or dying, losing my hearing, being separated from Cola ;^;

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Well since we're talking guys, I like black hair and brown eyes. =__=

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
I'm...not planning on such O_____o

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Coffee durrrr. Energy drinks are BAD for you.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS?
Black olives, green peppers, hot peppers, mushrooms, tomatoes...damn now I'm hungry

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Umm either white pizza or a three-cheese and spinach calzone =w=

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Black

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
...no...who HAS?? Other than maybe Anthony R. DX

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
Umm...*thinks* anything my friends have given me, really. I love it when they draw me a picture and surprise me with it =3

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Yes A big one COOOOLLAAAAAA~
_{I hope I'm not embarrassing you... >>;;; I'm just a bold person...;A; and sorry for spamming your icon...I LIEK IT D8 *runs*}

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No...At least I don't think so >>

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
59! _{Hey at least I didn't say 69}

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes, I suppose? Meh it doesn't really matter...I like blondes. I like brunettes. I like a mix 8D

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"I love you in the faec!" and "with something hard and sandpapery!"

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
the internet and the beach


34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
No but I will 8D

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Hahahahahaaaaa!! Umm chocolate, slash (yaoi), Cola Cola , soda, your mum, shiny things, MUSIC (esp AFI or Skuppy) 8D Not rly porn anymore lol

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yarrrr C< DestroyX and Zoog from Angelspit

37. FIRST JOB?
Tutoring my neighbor :C

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Hahaha well it depends on if you call it a prank call...however I have semi-tricked an ex bf of mine

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
No.... Idk...it's NOT a fairy tale...there's not someone for everyone, and no you are not made for one person and one person only. I do believe that people can get along very well, but srsly, there is NO way in hell that everyone will meet the "one and only person meant for them." I think that to be in a great relationship, you have to be really really good friends and be willing to sacrifice and really care and stuff. Nyeh I could write a thesis paper on this subject but I'll stop.

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Absolutely...nothing

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
No....

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
=________= ugh. Well...most people just call me "hey beautiful" or "hey gorgeous" (which I desperately HATE) but I suppose it would have to be the eyes.

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No...

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
I already had my bday. But I wanted my friends. :C

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
I greatly dislike children. >C I'm not planning on having any but I suppose if I was in a long-term, serious committed relationship and my lover wanted them, then I would compromise with adoption. In that case, only one. And idk what the name would be.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes. >> My middle name is my mum's childhood best friend. And my first name is also the name of a Biblical character. And nooo you shall not know~

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Oh god...a lot of things. One of which is being overly grotesque in behavioral nature; even if it's an idiosyncracy such as, oh Idk, licking a lip ring constantly???!!! *BLEH* Or being overly flirtatious. UGH.

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
My darling friends. :C I miss y'all.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Head and Shoulders I think... hahahaa!

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
No b/c I write fast and really really sloppy

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Um....lemme think about that...well I would have to say I'M A VEGETARIAN >C

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Yes =_____= Of course. Duh.

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
;A; Unfortunately...yes. I try very very hard not to be. I really do. More or less I'm just a tad possessive of my close friends or whoever I'm dating atm...But I don't tend to cramp them, I hope (And if I do, let me know PLEASE. B/c I don't wanna be like that!!). I can get past it. It's just a feeling I cannot help but I REFUSE to act upon it. I'm not jealous when good things happen to others though. It makes me happy.

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
No =___= It's very emotionally damaging

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Well I'm going to be honest and sacrifice my pride and all. Yes. A bit. To me, personality does matter more but let's all be completely honest...you can't HELP but appreciate someone for his/her good looks and you can't HELP but want to look your best as well. Am I right?

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Screaming, cussing, venting in a journal...if I'm really really pissed I'll punch my pillow but that's about it.

58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
X__x Well...that's tough. If I lost it, I would die. But if I gained it...nyeh I suppose I could lose it again if I gained it. I couldn't be revived from being dead, though.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
My stuffed dog named John =3 I still have him!

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
37. There were much more but I deleted them

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
Yes, a lot

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Umm only all the time?? WTF =____=;;

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mashed potatoes!!!

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ummm hmmm well...Idk, really. Mostly someone who's smart, nice, genuine, caring, SANE, funny, and who likes the same music. Someone who I can be srs with but then act goofy with later

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Chazzi, Chazz, Sparkles, Mika, CLG, Lover-san, Fuzzy, *insertmyinitalshere*, *initials*-beast, hoar, mumzy, durrtay tranny (yeah a few of my friends have adopted those last few, actually lol But that's ok cuz he's my GAY SON 8D)

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Super powers are DUMB >C Jk lol I guess if it was like...the powurr to transport oneself to someplace else...OR OR OR... the power to bring rock stars here ohhh Davvveeyy~

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
TV sucks ASSS. 8D But I do like to watch Yu-Gi-Oh! GX occasionally (still) and Girls Next Door

69. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Tell 'em to fuck off then block them >D Or fight 'em. Or ignore 'em.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Chocolate. BITCHIN. 8D

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Why...wouldn't I?? O___.

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Yeah...laptop

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Do my homework ;A;

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Ugh Idk.... It could be anywhere. I could stay here. I most likely will move over to the West coast for a bit. Australia, the UK, somewhere in Europe...idk I want dual citizenship somewhere, actually

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Well...it's a pain, I suppose so..whatever

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Agonoize--Straasfeind

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Water. As usual.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?.
Wendy...I think. Or it might've been Christina. I don't remember

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hair or eyes...Idk Sometimes it's how they dress if it's ridiculous


80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Talk to my friends (mainly Cola lolz), sit and stare at the wall, watch music vids, read about music, research music [genres and bands], listen to music, daydream, rp, go back and forth between various websites deadly bored and hoping with all my heart something has changed...

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
YOU >C Jk Um proly annoying people, school, or...bad music

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Summer, I guess. Happy memories~

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
either chocolate or fruityness...I like Hersheys 8D

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Yes, several C: I can have several. SHUDDUP XD

85. FAVORITE HAIR COLOR?
Black for the most part, but I also like multicolored hair or when someone does something very interesting with it...like different highlights or layers of colors or just...really expresses themselves Idk

86. EYE COLOR?
For other people...Brown =3 So cute. For me? Blue

87. SHOE SIZE?
8 1/2 -- 9 depending on the brand

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Umm I don't really like fast food since I'm vegetarian...

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Nyeh...Idk. Panera Bread or Pizza Spiga

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Never had it, never will.

91. WATCH TV TODAY?
No

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
My bday, I suppose

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
No, but I tried to learn how to play guitar and the keyboard. Shall try again later~


94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Eeehhh neither, really, but I guess I lean more towards being Republican

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Kisses suck hardcore. >< I hate them! I suppose if it was done nicely and by the right person maybe it wouldn't be so bad. I prefer hugs~

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
ONE NIGHT STANDS 8D No. Jk. Relationships. Deff

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Hmm *thinks* I don't remember....Proly...Crash Love, AFI shirt, and a pencil sharpener at Hot Topic

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
I don't really wanna be =__=

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
My textbooks? I don't generally like reading...

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OMGYOUGUYS!!! OK OK OK SO SO SO this was unexpected. Ok lemme just tell the damn story cuz it's amazzzinggg

Ok so today I log onto myspace and see that my friend Wendy was like "KMFDM tonight. Yay?" And I was like "KMFDM WHERRE??!!!!" Cuz KMFDM IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS 8DDDD OH LORD

SO so so she called me up and was all like "Hey you wanna go?" And I was like "how much is it?" And she was like "Oh, I have an extra ticket. You wanna come?" And I was like "....gimme a moment...I am speechless...." So I took a deep breath to calm myself and I was like "Yeah!!!!!! Just lemme ask my mum!!" So I did and she asked all these nosy mum questions. Well finally she was like Ok you can go...So I was like YES. So then I started spazzing and all and ahsidaoidghadgia MAN YARR

Ok so I had to rush to get ready cuz I didn't have too much time, right? I kept fucking up my makeup and I got it in my hair and I was like FUCK like every five seconds lolz. Cuz then she texted me and was like "I'm coming in 20-30 mins" And I was like AHAHHHHAHAHA I'm not ready!! But then I hurried more and ran into my room and told my mum. And she was like WAIT your dad doesn't know! You're not going anywhere til you ask him! I was like FUCK mum I'm 19!!! But then I called him and asked and he was cool with it. But my mum wouldn't believe me!! She called him and had to check. UGH so annoying

Anyway I had trouble choosing what to wear 8< But helped me. Thanks, sweetie~ I felt better having your approval of it.

Anyway so I had to stuff a fucking piece of bread down my throat cuz I hadn't eaten and then pretty much so run out the door. But it was great cuz when she came and my parents answered...they were like WHOA. Cuz she has like...so many ear piercings and she had other piercings but took em out. And she was wearing Tripp pants and a fishnet shirt and had more eyeliner than me. And so I came running out in my blue corset and Tripps and we were like HAAAAAAY I haven't seen you in two years!! *CLING* And then my rents were staring like O_____o And she told them OFF man. She was like "Hay, I may dress like this, but I'm in med school!!" Cuz she KNOWS Ive been having problems with them. GOD I love her!! She's amazing!

Anyway, Wendy was taking along her bf and her friend. And so like we got in the car and had the windows all rolled down and playing really loud metal. And then like...we went to her house to hang out while waiting on her friend to get the tickets. We watched Scooby and played with her pets (her parrots and her cat) and I felt like I was gonna pass out cuz I hadn't eaten much taht day but she gave me cheese and Pepsi and I lay down for an hour and was Ok. Anyway, then her friend texted her and was like "come pick the tickets up at my place." And her friend actually turned out to be Chris Rozak (sp?) and he's like....a DJ here and so like she's tight with him and she can be like calling him up and be like "hook me up with tickets" and he'll do it! Damn we went to his house and she got the tickets and asked him for some money too, and he gave it to her.

Ok so then we were driving around and Wendy was trying to find the place by like....using her GPS and we got on the BAD side of town. And she was like KEEP THE DOORS LOCKED. And so we had to make the guys lock their doors. And we eventually found the place and spent some time outside cuz one of the guys wanted to finish his beer =____________= *groan*

Well we got inside and just talked for awhile; there was some other people that Wendy knew there. And we looked around and there were a LOT of cyber goths there. Like...I mean with dreds and colored hair and goggles on their heads and like...big ass vinyl combat boots with the platforms or the buckles...like above the knee. And several girls had like the garters on and a lot of people were wearing vinyl corsets. And Wendy and I looked at each other and murmured "We look normal compared to them." God, I've never seen SO MANY CRAZY OUTFITS.

Anyway, then the first industrial act came on and it was Angelspit. And like...it was pretty awesome. 83 They're hardcore, man. I was pretty much so deaf by the time they got off stage. Now here's the best part: while they were striking the stage and making it ready for KMFDM, Angelspit was just hanging around on the side so I grabbed Wendy's arm and was like "let's go get a pic with them" So she was like "Ok." So we went over and we were like "can we have a pic?" And they were like "sure!!" They were SOOOO nice!! Omg they talked to us a little and we got pics. 833 They were amazing~ I got to hug them 8DD _{thegirlwassohott} I sooo wanted her outfit.

Ok ok and then KMFDM came on and EVERYONE WENT CRAZY. Like they all screamed and some started throwing bottles and then we started dancing...like hardcore. And Wendy and I were just like going crazy MAN DID MY EARS BLEED~ 8D GOD I am not kidding...they rock on the radio but it's NOTHING LIKE LIVE. They were great! And if you think Nine Inch Nails is industrial....NNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Go listen to them. D8

So anyway after a bit, the two guys looked like they were trying to get some drugs so Wendy and I ran and hid for a bit cuz we were scared they were gonna come try to hit her up for money. But it was all good. We got up on the platform and started hardcore dancing again and did so for like the ENTIRE time. DAMN I hurt so much but I couldn't stop! And then when KMFDM got off stage, everyone started screaming "KMFDM SUCKS" over and over. Now, I'm pretty sure you guys aren't familiar with them, but this is what their fans chant while throwing their fists in the air if they want an encore. So they came back onstage and played two more songs. And when they came back on, Wendy took her shirt off and swung it around. She was wearing a fishnet shirt though so...it wasn't all bad. LOL It was funny 8D

Yarrr so I took SOOOO many pics!!! I put em on myspace; gonna facebook them next. OMG IT WAS GREAT

I'M SO GLAD I FINALLY HAD SOME FUN

DAMN when we left I was SOOO fucking high from music and my brains were leaking out practically cuz it was SO loud and just..AMAZING. I was sooo happy I was like "Wendy I could just kiss you" And I did I DID 8D (don't worry it was just on the cheek lolz). But she was like "hahaha you took my kiss from a girl that was not family virginity" we lol'd.

So then she wanted to go clubbing but my dad had said no and I was EXHAUSTED anyway so she took me home.

SO THAT WAS MY EXCITING TALE OF THE DAY 8D WOOOO~ I'm so hyped!!!!

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That is the only way I can describe right now D8 LOL OMG *twitch**twitch*

Ummm things are better as far as the parentals are concerned and everything. I'm just....anxious...right now. VERY ANXIOUS. Over so much... I have a buttload of hw due tomorrow for one thing lol. But, eh, there's other things bothering me too.

I hardly slept at ALL last night. I stayed up til like 5:30 AM cuz I knew I couldn't sleep...only went back cuz I was passing out...collapsed and rolled around in emotional turmoil for a bit, got up half an hour later to pop a painkiller I didn't even need, went back to bed for like 2 hours in nervous anxiety. TOSS TURN TOSS TURN OH GOD. Finally got a little bit of sleep but the dreams, oh, the dreams...Can't even escape there! Some of them made it worse some made it better...My poor mind was trying to cope with the stress. X____-- Maybe a walk would do me a lot of good if it wasn't raining.

WELL. I am to fix some of these problems right away...or really, as soon as I am able. These issues aren't things that can't be fixed; it just might take a bit of time and effort. Which I do plan on doing. I'm just like akjsdigjaigughasghsjdfawinenvagbgura right now. Hahahahahahahahahaha *nervous laughter* *twitch*

Sleep deprivation is an odd thing.

Well, I also wanted to say something that I have told to some of my friends already (and you guys probably knew somehow anyway and I already said it on LJ but...) Yeah. I'm just...not even gonna suppress it anymore...

I'm NOT straight.

I really think perhaps the best way to describe me is pansexual =/

If you have a fucking problem with this, then let the door hit you on the ass as you leave, figuratively speaking of course. Because I CANNOT help how I feel. I've been suppressing it for YEARS. Been in denial for a long time until recently. Then I decided ya know, this is stupid. I can't change it. I was trying not to be "wrong" or whatever but....I'm not even going to go there, I'm not even going to explain, just...whatever. *waves it off*

Just freaking forget about it if it bothers you that much. But if it does, then whatever. I'm not gonna care anymore.

Anyway, that didn't make me feel too much better but I suppose it's a bit of relief to not hafta pretend anymore. I really shouldn't have hidden it or suppressed it. It caused me a LOT of grief and pain, and I really thought I deserved to die for awhile there. But that was years ago and I've grown since then. =/

At any rate, my stomach is still all bleeeehhhhhhhh. Like I seriously thought I was gonna be sick earlier. I was almost sick earlier X_____x Some of you know why. But if you don't know, then I'm not gonna bother explaining to you, cuz I don't want EVERYONE to know. PRIVATE PLZ

Nyeh, well, ummmm idk what more to say. A part of me wants to keep typing just cuz I'm so AKjsDIHUhdfauiAHSDGHNgnANSDngahag but I don't really have much to say, I guess.

Other than things are getting better...so far...But I'm just gonna enjoy not being completely miserable. Though I will admit I'm pretty miserable atm but it can be fixed relatively easily, so no worries. >> I can't fix everything at this very moment but I can get started hahahaha. Which is what I'm doing right now, really.

Wheeewww Well....come next week or the week after, things will probably go to hell again, cuz I'm about to sneak off to get my lip pierced and after I do, I shall probably get a good verbal scourging from the parents X___x But I want it SO BAD. There's many reasons why I'm doing it anyway, actually. And some are really really dumb. =/

ummmmm not too much else other than...I will get around to my messages later, and I'ma go find your file to send you later, kk?

Well, cya